When It's More Than the Blues

Personal Health Questionnaire for Depression Screening*

Over the last 2 weeks, how often have you been bothered by any of the following
problems? Yes No

1.During the past month, have you often been bothered by feeling
down, depressed, or hopeless?

2.During the past month, have you often been bothered by little
interest or pleasure in doing things?

About three months ago I answered a solid "yes" to both questions when I found myself in the grips of a depression as bad as when my brother died 27 years ago. I was in the perfect storm- hormones, work, family, responsiblity, my own mortality, and even my work with several suicidal patients seemed to be contagious.

The scary and sad part was, that even though intellectually, I knew I was in trouble, deep weeds as they say, I was not well enough to do anything to help myself for a couple months. It took all my energy to meet my daily work and home obligations, and learn to set down my own troubles and focus on something outside myself to function. My work is a source of satisfaction and pride, and that helped keep me going. I am also mindful and appreciative of my blessings, especially when friends and patients have struggles much greater than mine. I recognize my cup truly runneth over and this insight helps sustain me.

I felt better enough to seek some help, and I am finding my joy and balance again. It's a slow process, but certainly beats the alternative. I am enjoying my hobbies again, like gardening, and crafts, and have actually completed an embellished tank and jeweled bookmark.

I am thankful for the genuine love and support of family and friends, near and far who humble me with their caring. You all are part of this inspiration and support, for which I truly thank you.

I hope by "cleaning out my closet" with sharing about my depression, that I might help someone who is struggling, or help those close to the person recognize it and reach out.


*The Patient Health Questionnaire (PHQ) sets are self-reported depression rating scales. For example, the Patient Health Questionnaire-9 (PHQ-9) is a self-reported, 9-question version of the Primary Care Evaluation of Mental Disorders.[12] The Patient Health Questionnaire-2 (PHQ-2) is a shorter version of the PHQ-9 with two screening questions to assess the presence of a depressed mood and a loss of interest or pleasure in routine activities; a positive response to either question indicates further testing is required.

Cross posted at The Motivation Station as Cleaning Out My Closet, When It's More Than the Blues

Funny Hotel Sign for Almost Wordless Wednesday

Santa Cruz, California
I'm glad "heated poo" is seasonal. The smell must be...intense.
Please "favorite" me at Signspotting.com for April 12th and Thank you!

Scenes from Santa Cruz and Monterey for Ruby Tuesday

The Central Coast of California is stunning and awe-inspiring in the truest sense of the word. Plus, the "reds there are quite robust." ;o)

Santa Cruz Lighthouse and Surf Museum
Capitola Wharf Boat Rental
Monterey Bay Aquarium

Happy Ruby Tuesday and thank you for visiting, and May The Red Be With You!

Michael and Bubbles "I Don't Get It" Art for Almost Wordless Wednesday

During our family's recent visit to the Los Angeles County Art Museum, we not only got to see Jeff Koons' Blue Balloon Dog, but also his "Michael Jackson and Bubbles" sculpture. It's garish, sideshowish, and more than a little sad, kind of like the subject himself, may he RIP. Bubbles too. On that front, it's successful, even with the aversion factor, because it engaged us. Things that make you go hmmm.

And for all your background hunters like me, on the left is Warhol's Campbell Soup painting, to which my kids were like, "What the heck??"

Anything make you go hmmm lately? Thank you so much.

Oh Say Can You See My Blue Balloon Dog?

Lately, I have been as blue as this Jeff Koons balloon dog. Thank goodness for the restorative nature of art.

I have survived a recent yard sale and vow to never do That again. Ever.

I am dealing with another milestone in parenting, our oldest has his drivers learners' permit and is attending drivers education. Drivers education doesn't come with a prescription for the parents, but it should.

Work has been incredibly busy and stressful as I transition patients to a client who did not renew their contract. Saying goodbye to long time patients has been much harder than I anticipated, and the kind things they have said to me are very touching and moving- "I'll never forget you", "You've always been so helpful", "I'll miss talking to you". Very kind things.

This is my 501st post and it's been over a month since I've posted. Can you say Loser? I knew that you could. ;o) Thank you.

My Last Quarter in Pictures for Almost Wordless Wednesday

The madness started at the same time as "Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows Part 1" hit the theaters.



It started to build to a crescendo with both of the boys performing in December recitals.



We hit the road south to visit The Hotel Del Coronado decorated for the holidays.

The boys like to adopt this superhero recruiting pose for photos. The big Santa doll seems unimpressed.

Several weeks ago saw us at Universal Citywalk for our youngest son's birthday party.

The boys and a few friends went indoor parachuting at IFLYHollywood.

The oldest was a natural.

All the boys loved it.

We weren't the only ones out enjoying the beautiful weather, Stephen Hawking was also there that day.



How about you? Any wizards or scientists cross your path recently? Thank you so much.

San Diego Silliness for Almost Wordless Wednesday

Expert grammarians, please advise. I think this sign for the male restroom is incorrect, that it should read, "Gents".

Sign from the botanical gardens in Balboa Park, San Diego, California.

The teens proudly display their new pet, a giant beetle. I hope the cat doesn't mind sharing her litter box.